Death and Dependency

It's 1971 and I am 3 years old.  My father was killed in an auto accident.  I do not have a father.  I am going to learn how to grow up with the reality of death in my life, and I am going to get an early start.

I imagine some people are able to hold on to their innocence for longer than those of us who have to learn something awful as soon as possible.  Reality was a part of my life as much as it was with the people around me.  Just I had more to learn than everyone else.

Our new family consited of 4 children and one parent.

Alberta (38)

Kathy (13) 

Patrick (12)

Brennan (7)

Francis (3)

You will not find a complete story if you're here looking for it.  I will tell you about me and not everyone. Though you will know everyone involved, you will see them through my eyes.  Even today, my story is incomplete.  I do not have the combined knowledge of everyone involved.  You'll find that information was hard to get within our new family, and it continues to this day.

Crackin'

What an odd term for me to find as the first selection in a series of articles that will describe me in different time periods.  It seems to me that memories are emotion specific.  When the highest levels of emotions are involved, you'll find me picking apart an event I can remember because it affected me enough to burn it into this wicked mash of synapsis and nueroligical mush.

I've found only a few memorabe aspects of my early childhood.  Up unitl I left for the carnival, It appears to me that I wast just wasting time.  Though I never excelled at school, but am quite intelligent, I think that I did not have enough unbiased, free flowing interaction with other kids my age.  I was missing something more than a father when I was young.  No direction, no guidance, no definition was there for me to take hold of.  I had summer vacations, a home in a nice neighborhood in the outskirts of the suburbs, yet I don't think I got what I should have from when I was young.

What I "got" was a good lesson on dysfunction.  Dysfunction leads to lazy minds and too much free time to get a chance to develop like one should.  It was still a nice prosperous time in America.  Growing up 80's was the end of innocence.  I had a chance to be prepared for this new world order, and instead I went to the end of the line for now, and maybe forever.

I believe that most people experience the same attraction to things that skirt the line of morality and ethics.  Fortunately many of us have a good moral keel to lead you through difficult situations and decisions.  Unfortunately, I found a was to slip through my own families cracks to become what I would call something less than productive.  I am a man without mission.  I was a boy who didn't do it right the first time.

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